Friday, July 3, 2009

You're an asshole. Did you know that?

No, Raj, that was not okay to say. Not okay, not okay, not okay.

It took me a year to get over you, and I will very damn well appreciate anyone who helped me reach that point. It wasn't easy maintaining such a close friendship with you while simutaneously trying to get over you. You certainly didn't make it easy for me either - you kept telling me about other girls, coming online when you were drunk and telling me how much you missed me, wanted to kiss me, how you wish so-and-so were me, etc. It made me sick to the stomach to think of you with other girls, literally sick. The fact I could even handle being friends is beyond me. In retrospect, I should have stopped being friends with you - I would have gotten over you so much faster, and it would have saved me so much heartbreak. However, I didn't. I don't think you realize just how difficult that process was for me. If you did, you wouldn't have said that. You also wouldn't have said that bit about me being indifferent towards you. To go through a year of hell just to be friends with you, YOU out of everyone else - that's a compliment; don't you DARE tell me I'm indifferent. Don't tell me I had more than enough time to get over you. I clearly care more about this friendship than you. For once, FOR ONCE, I wish you could see that.

And you know, I often bite my tongue when you say shit like that, but not this time. You just shrugged off a year of hell like it was nothing to you - you really don't get it, do you?

Whatever, you can go fuck off now for all I care.

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