Why can't we be friends?

He did mean that we shouldn't be friends anymore. I talked him out of it, I think. I'm currently thinking we can still be good friends, but perhaps I should keep some things to myself. I will apply the same boundaries I give him to myself (only mild talks of dating and "playing"). That is fair. I would keep my anxiety to myself (since he doesn't understand it), but it's a big part of me and shouldn't be something I have to hold back. Besides, I'm working on lowering my anxiety levels (I will be much happier this way); I hope it won't be a huge deal for too much longer. Maybe he used to be detrimental to my health because he added so much anxiety, but that's not an issue anymore, and I don't want anyone telling me it is. I really am fine now. Trust me, my lack of anxiety surrounding this issue says so.

And I think, despite our conflicts, we are good friends. He says that people are replaceable... to an extent, that is true. But I always kind of miss the friendships I used to have with people, and I think that makes them irreplaceable in a way. You can't forget the part they used to play in your life, and you always kind of miss them. So even though you have new friends now, you still remember and miss the old ones, and that makes them irreplaceable because you won't ever have the same friendship with your old friends again, and your new friends (despite probaby being fucking amazing themselves) won't be exactly the same as the old ones... Fuck, I don't even know if I make sense to anyone but me. Perhaps I'm just too sentimental. I also hate letting go of people. I don't want to replace Raj, and I don't want to be replaced. If I ever relapse and become the same person I was last year, I will end our friendship. However, right now, I'm in a good place.

And that is that.